Hard workout needed

I almost feel embarrassed writing this: it's been almost two months since I had a workout other than walking. And I am in need of getting back into the swing of things. I'm an emotional mess. You see, working out for me isn't just a way to keep in shape. It's my therapy. No lie. If I don't workout I end up way, way down. It's definitely my way of not having to take depression meds. And right now, I either have to get my ass moving or go to the doctor and I prefer the former.

I did go to the gym yesterday. I started out on the treadmill at a very slow pace because I really don't want to push it too hard. I'm not going by my heart rate, just by how I feel. And I don't know if it's being pregnant or not having run in almost two months, but my legs were itching like crazy. Holy hell!!! I've had this happen before but only when it's super cold out. I actually had to run to the bathroom so I could scratch like crazy because I was going nuts! But after almost two miles I got a call from the kids center. Jackson peed himself. It was my fault. We only recently did potty training and I should have put him in a diaper. Grr!!

So I am off for some time on the rower. It's all I have for the moment while the boy sleeps. He has totally been testing me today. And I have flown off the handle a couple times. I don't like it and I know it's because I am not working out. I need a good, hard run and I can't, so I am really hoping that rowing works. I remain hopeful, but a run is usually all that really works to bring my spirits up. All I know is I need to find something or these next 6 months will be very, very long :-).

13 weeks Picture

Here is a picture of the 'ol belly at 13 weeks. See, wasn't lying that I am getting bigger already :-). I don't mind getting a belly but I don't really like being at this stage....getting big, but not big enough to fit into the maternity stuff. I think I have a couple things I could wear but I loaned all my maternity stuff out so I need to get it all back!

Feeling Big Already

I don't have a picture but I assure you I look about the size I did when I was about 5 months pregnant during the first pregnancy, or that's about how I feel :-)

And just for fun, here is a picture of me at 37 weeks. I still have a hard time believing my stomach is going to stretch out that much again!!! Maybe I will get a smaller baby this time and not get as big :-) (J was 8.8).

Bathing Suit Season

It's that time of year and I am "obviously" in need of a new suit. Last time I was pregnant I didn't have a pool to go to and I wasn't really showing much. This year is different; I'm actually already looking very pregnant. They really don't lie when they say you show faster with second pregnancies! Anyways, I'm trying to decide if I should actually get a maternity suit or wear a very modest bikini. What did you all find most comfortable when you were pregnant? I have a feeling the maternity suit is going to feel strange. But I don't want to look like a weirdo pregnant lady wearing a two piece, either. I got enough strange looks wearing a bikini last year. I guess once you're a mom a bikini is out?

Anyways, would love to hear your thoughts :-)

Feeling Better

It seems my last post scared the crap out of the baby! The day after I wrote it I started feeling SO much better! I'm still a wee bit tired but the nausea seems to be gone for good (as long as I don't miss a snack or a meal). I can't tell you how good this feels!! Like most people I love to eat and hate feeling sick. It is nice to finally have an appetite again :-)

I had my second appointment today and the midwife was able to find the heartbeat! It's always such a great sound and I got a little teary eyed when I heard it. Such a relief! I rented a doppler during my last pregnancy and I am contemplating it again. I worry a little about the overuse of it but it is sooo fun to listen to the baby. I remember last time that we could hear the baby moving around and I think Jon liked to hear the heartbeat since he was never able to make it to an appointment during the first few months. Did any of you guys ever use one?

So now that I have some energy back and the nausea is gone I need to get back to the gym. I can't believe the amount of fat that has already accumulated on my body. I know some of it has to do with just being pregnant (same thing happened last time), but most of it is because I haven't been able to exercise for a while. I wonder if I can reduce the amount of fat on me even if I can't lose weight? Oh well...not too worried about it :-)

I remember reading blogs about a book some of you read about exercise during pregnancy. Can someone give me the name? Thanks!

yup, it's been a while

And in that month I have worked out zero times. Some walking here and there and that's about it. I have felt like crap. Tired. Nauseous about 90% of the day. And tired. And nauseous. I did start taking my prenatals at night and that seems to help with the nausea but it's still kinda sucky. I have had no desire to work out at all and now my ass shows it. Oh well! I'm just hoping that I can still get back into it and not harm myself once the fatigue and nausea go away.

The family is surely suffering because I haven't' really been able to cook dinner and we've been relying on pre-made meals which I HATE since they are so terrible for you. It's tough because nothing sounds good to me. Well, no, let me rephrase. Everything sweet and carb-loaded sounds delicious to me. Donuts...oh my gosh want them so bad! Not good for the butt!

Hopefully only a few more weeks of this and all shall be good. I'm just hoping everything is ok with the baby. We did see it on ultrasound so that is promising. But that was a few weeks ago and so now I'm just wondering if everything is ok. We have our next appointment next Tuesday so hopefully we'll be able to hear the heartbeat! I worry that the fatigue and nausea is just in my head :-) That'd be embarrassing!

anyhoo, just wanted to give an update and say I'm alive. I've just been tired and sleeping/resting during Jackson's nap time so I haven't hopped on here much to read the blogs.

Hopefully sometime soon I might have something else to write about!

Army 10-miler

So a big part of me wants to sign up for the Army 10-Miler. But umm, that's a month before my due date. Is that insane? Jon is pretty much telling me it's not allowed :-). If my pubic symphesis issues don't come back this pregnancy I might be able to do it. Don't worry, I have no dreams of even running fast. It would definitely be a walk/run event for me and the baby :-).

What do you all think???? I need to decide fast because it's selling out quick: it's probably around 24K registered and caps at 30K. Hmm....